Non-conformism

Hangs in the air, 

tears of whom had laughed

Memories are drowned, whole pasts

Just to live the current sadness

that just offers dirty exits

All of them

They condemn us to auto- destruct ourselves

If weak we are

If pessimists we be

And all of this for just trying to understand it

They want us ignorants

Silencing us with courage

SHIT! I CAN STILL SHOUT LOUD!

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I see  a burning heart
A soul that trapped in the meat prison, screams exhausted
The sadness caresses her
There's nothing I can do
I can only observe
It's not me, I am not there..

Naughty children

I lost the control of my thoughts long time ago
I simply let them wander around  in my grey matter
How they have fun! They are like naughty children..

The Visit

The past touched me softly and gave me goose bumps.

Suddenly as disgusted of my appearance, spitted on my face and left.

- No, I never denied you. Why do you treat me like this?

The Victory of the Witches

The time of the bad witches arrived
Others were defeated before
I observe their weird rituals from my cage
They scare me as a prey
But their joy consoles me
How they value my defeat
And the celebration continues through the night
Tomorrow is another day
Another battle to win or lose
I await anxious and uncertain 

Our own reality

When the mind creates its own reality,

that being that everybody judges ignorant is happy!

Among thousands of pessimists conformed with the monotony of their lives

01/08/96

Another Attempt

I am going to lay down again in that bed of thorns
Still bloodied from the last time
But this time I am not wearing hopes or illusions
Just my naked body
I hear saying: you look for pain

internal Suicide

I can no longer react
The despair turned into a rope that wraps my neck
My loyal sadness built a chair that, now, holds the weight of my body
The pessimism gained strength and suddenly pushed the chair!
Refusing to give me the chance to resort to my last sane thought  
I didn't had time for my last breath

I see..

I see,
I see hypocrite beings judging something,
I see,
I see disgrace in form of depression,
I see,
I see revolt in all the non-conformed eyes,
I see,
I see sadness manipulating insane minds,
I see,
I see morbid thoughts with desire to die,
I see,
I see courage, damned courage,
I see,
I see death..
.. bloody death, poorly planned death, 
deaths, deaths, deaths..
I can't see, I can no longer see
nothing tells me nothing, anymore.. 

09/05/96